I Lost My Job & I Couldn’t Be Happier

The saying goes “The best time to look for a job is when you already have one.” And this makes sense for multiple reasons.

One reason being that you are still being provided with financial support while you search for something new. Another reason being that according to the “Laws of Attraction”, it’s easier to manifest more of what you already have. Well, sorry phrase enthusiasts, but I’m going to have to disagree.

A couple of weeks ago I was let go from my job of almost 3 years. It was a job that once inspired me. It was a job that taught me so much in such a short period of time. It was a job that came in a time of need for something like it in my life.

It was also an extremely toxic work environment that took an immense emotional toll on my mental health. I grew unhappy over time and lost all my inspiration drive. I am a firm believer in the laws of attraction, positivity, and the power of gratitude. But it got to a point where all the gratitude exercises in the world couldn’t help me be happy while I was stuck in such a negative rut.

Almost a year ago, I created terms for myself. What would need to change in this job for me to want to stay? I decided things like more money, consistency, and mutual respect between my employer and I would be a good start. More money came, but we all know that money can only bring so much happiness. The other things did not. The mutual respect, the stability and honesty I desired (& quite frankly deserved) never did.

I decided it was time for me to move on and I began looking for a new job. I updated my resume, fine-tuned my portfolio and LinkedIn profile, began putting my intentions out in the Universe and started applying for jobs. Looking for a job is never easy, but looking for a job…or rather doing literally ANYTHING…is even more difficult when your permanent state of being is emotional and mental exhaustion.

Then, one day it happened. I was called in to a meeting with my boss and our investor and they let me go. I had a feeling it was coming. My subconscious knew before I did and told me in a dream that our investor had pulled funding and the company I worked for was closing its doors just days before this happened.

It was a bittersweet ending. I had wanted to leave for so long, but I expected it would happen on my terms. Sometimes though, we need that push. Trying to look for a job while I already had one wasn’t working because as long as I had the job security, however miserable it made me, I wasn’t doing enough to leave.

Now it’s been 2 weeks. I’ve been on the hunt. I’ve had an extremely supportive group of friends and colleagues lending a hand. I haven’t landed anything yet, but that’s okay. I’m enjoying the time to myself. I’m happy again. My inspiration is coming back. I’m not oversleeping every day. I have been feeding my soul with travel, books I’ve been meaning to read, hiking, writing, preparing for a dodgeball tournament...you know, the usual. I’ve had the energy to actively look and apply for jobs I might want, and I’m excited to pursue new things. Plus, now I don’t have to worry about the anxiety that comes with letting your boss know you’re moving on.

Losing a job can be scary, but I trust that the Universe has something in store for me if I’m patient and willing to opening the door when this new opportunity comes knocking.

Now, I’m not saying that if you’re looking for a new job you need to quit your current one today. Or maybe you do. I take no responsibility for anyone’s actions but my own. But there is something to be said about the way we handle a situation in survival mode & the clarity, drive and excitement that comes with it if we allow ourselves to see the silver lining.